The Pain of Letting Go

“Let Go and Let God.” To be honest, I’ve never been a fan of the saying. It seems like a cliche go-to response Christians use when they don’t know what else to say and have no other wisdom to offer.

The truth is, I’m not convinced it is even possible to ever really let go. How can you let go of things that matter? Things of great importance? Situations and circumstances that demand your attention?

Or, maybe it’s just me. Maybe it’s just my inner control freak coming out to play.

I find myself constantly wanting to trust Him. Wholeheartedly. But it is so hard to loosen my grip. To let go and know that He’s got it. So I walk around carrying a load way to heavy for my shoulders to bear. Weight that I will collapse under if I try to do it on my own for too long. So I must give it over to Him. It is not always easy. And it is something I have to do every. single. day.

Maybe, over time, I will learn the skill and it will become easier. But for now it remains a constant struggle.

I wish I could be more specific, but some things are just not meant for the internet.