Trust

 

2014 was simultaneously one of the best years of my life, while also being one of the hardest. For some reason I decided it was a good idea to have a baby, take in two teenagers, and start two small businesses all at the same time. It seems in my life I am either overwhelmed or underwhelmed, but I can never seem to find that perfect balance of the two.

One night I was laying in bed, unable to fall asleep. It was past midnight and I was getting angrily tired. Frustrated by my brains inability to shut off. Anxiety creeping in. Suddenly I feel a nudging in my spirit to go downstairs and get my  bible. Nope. No way. Not doing that. It’s late. I’m exhausted. I need to go to sleep. Just go. No.

I decide to meet in the middle and so I reach for my phone to go to my bible app. Suddenly I know that God wants me to read the verse of the day. And before I even see it I know in my heart exactly which verse it would be.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” -Jeremiah 29:11

Sure enough. I look and there it is. And I just smile to myself. Because God knew I needed that reminder. And He wants me to trust Him.  

And so…  though I don’t know what the future holds, I am choosing to trust.